Saturday, July 3, 2010
Last blogged @ 7:50 PM

A lot of things are playing in my head right now. I'm so stressed out. I regretted for treating b the bad way. But after how he treated me just now, it gave me a second thought whether I should carry on this relationship or not. Well, I'm still thinking about it. I have not been taking my medicine since yesterday night. Let it be. Let me be sick. I don't bother anymore. B, I hope you are okay. Sorry for beating you up like one idiot just now. I didn't mean to. I hope all this shit is gonna be over. Be it with or without breaking up with you. Ya allah, tolonglah hambamu yang lemah ini ya allah );

Last blogged @ 10:54 AM

I want to break up with b. I can't it anymore. All this is too hurting for me. Every night without fail, tears will be rolling down my cheeks. I didn't know what is wrong with me. I can't stand it anymore. I want to be out from b's life. I hate him a lot. Sometimes, I just felt like killing myself and not see him again. I hate him! I hate him!

Thursday, July 1, 2010
Last blogged @ 11:15 PM

b said that she regretted to have me as her boyfriend..hais..didnt expect her to say such things..just because she fought with her fren and i missed call her to call me back as i just care to kn0w what happened..sigh..she was irritated by my missed call..its soo freaking sad that she admitted that she regret..idk wether she mean it or nt..called her just nw..try asking if she really mean it..and her reply was "yes"! Hais..dear god..help me by saving this relationship..i really do l0ve her! I swear upon myself! I LOVE U BIE! :'(

Labels: breakdown

Last blogged @ 12:00 AM

What does all of this mean? I regretted being with b. We quarreled and it's the worst thing ever. He even called me a sundal. I can't stand it. I don't mind if he wants to spout vulgar on me but not that bloody 6 words on me. How could u? I hate you b!

Friday, June 25, 2010
Last blogged @ 11:25 PM

missed call mama's phone just to expect b's msg in return..about her whereabouts and all..just because of too worried as been kept thinking are they safe on their journey back home..scared if papa is sleepy or what during driving..bt i think mama was irritated by my missed call..maybe..i think b was also fed up..bt nvm la..hope they are safe...hais...i dun mean any harm or what..im just worried..dats all..four days without b by my side was a totally fuck up life! i miss her!

Labels: just because im worried.

Wednesday, June 23, 2010
Last blogged @ 12:01 AM

just a short update...been soo lonely and im already missing b soo badly..hais..usually at this point of time,she had already called me and talk to me till morning..bt as for now,nothing is appearing on my phone..it doesnt even ring..hais..come back fast dear..im soooo missing u!! i miss your voice dear...hais

Tuesday, June 22, 2010
Last blogged @ 4:06 PM

Its has already been 9 hours since bby left...hais...it was just soo sad that i cant even explain how i felt...met her yesterday...we cherish every seconds we had together..it was a sad meeting i guess...as for today,i woke up at 2 plus...b's msg reminded me of her...i went to my wallet and look at the thing she gave me before she left...really..it was just damn freaking sad...she went to KL for 4 days...bt that 4 days......argh...too long for me...a lot of things happened yesterday night...i was soo sad that i cried in my heart..looking at her...while she is facing something really bad(wont explain any further why)..bt i just put a fake smile on my face so she will not be worried...bt no matter how i smiled,she knows what i am feeling and thinking..hais...wifey..i miss you alot!!! I really do!!!come back fast ok bby?i will be waiting for your arrival..make sure u come back in one piece dear..imy and ilysm!! *hugs & kisses*

Labels: i miss you badly